LIFE

why do we hurt? why is there pain? i know that in a few years everything will make sence, but right now its too much! i start work this week, but really my heart is somewhere else. i try to keep myself busy but reality doesnt disappear! i can hide it for a while but its always there! so why bother running? God I know you are Bigger, Greater, and Larger than life as we know it, please give me peace in my soul! Last week was hard for me, then i got home and my papa is in hospital. God whatever your plan is for me, can i have a quick glimse?

RELATIONSHIPS

God, it has all become clear to me how precious relationships are. i dont want to take any for granted, i thank you for all my friends. today i thought about boyfriends, and how much we can ruin when we have one! unless its the one i am going to marry, whats the point? im only taking away something that my future husband should have! i am reading 'every single womans battle' and it hit me that men become attracted through what they see, whereas women fall in love with their heart and emotions! so we should protect both!

CONVERSATIONS

in the last week i have had some of the best conversations in my life. i prayed that God would bless every person i talked too, and wow! so much has come out of these, and i pray that i continue to converse about certain topics with those people. its amazing how vulnerable i can be when talking! but its so cool because when im vulnerble it opens the other person up to talk!

CHANGES

well i know, now more than ever, that life changes without warning at times! God makes me grow in change, I dont always like it, beacuse it means i have to be ready for it, and thats something im not good with! i like things to be the same all the time! call me boring, call me whatever, but thats me! Yet, i can see why God needs change, i understand why people come and go, they have been for centuries, its just hard when its my own! 

AUGUST

who would have thought i would have gone through such a change this month! what a month it has been! im sooooooo thankful Joy came over, and shook me out of my existance into this life of living! now ive been given an opportunity to minister to 300 kids a week in my classroom, they think im teaching geography!!! im praying that these kids see Christ in and though me! lets see what this month brings!